I feel like writing about what's in my head today. I am fortunate to have grown up in a family that loved me beyond measure. My sister and I get along great and even though my parents have been through tough times in their marriage they shielded me from it until I was old enough to get it. They have been married for 45 years and I celebrate with them because I know what a true miracle it is they stayed together to find the happiness they have now.
When I look at my husband I see a man that I occasionally just want to scream at and call names, but the truth is he is my best friend in the whole world. We've been married 15 years and anybody who can put up with me and my temper is truely special.
I have two of the most beautiful kids and yes they can be a handful (especially my son) they bring out the best in me. For awhile the worst was coming out and that's when I realized I had to see the Dr. Some people would think that putting myself and my son in ADHD meds is a horrible thing, but it isn't. Ever since I began the treatment which includes a stimulant and a anti-depressant I have found some peace. In the past I never could have sat and played games with my kids without loosing my patience and now I can. The thing I love the best is that when my kids cuddle up with me on the sofa I can wrap my arms around them and hug them feel the deep love and peace of being their Mother that I was too busy to allow myself before.
Some would say that we only find peace by turning to God and that meds won't help you with that. Guess what meds can help you if you need them. I kept asking for help in my prayers and found myself feeling strong thoughts that meds would help me. I believe that God helps those that help themselves. We have a brain and he expects us to use it.
You are never too busy to love yourself and those around you.
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Amen, Sister!
Congrats on finding peace. Those who say that only God can give peace and not a medication would probably still happily take an antibiotic for an infection. There are problems at times with the chemicals in the brain just as there are problems in other cells in the body.
Ya know, when people make a moral judgment about that taking meds you need, they should just be shot. Maybe God led you to that doctor so you could get the meds you need and Stephen. You did the righ thing, sweetheart. If it lets you enjoy this special time while your kids are still little, I know you did.
I take meds too so don't feel bad in the least about it. And the next time you come up to Nashville, we can swap meds and see what happens! Errr, maybe that's not such a good idea?
-ZM
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