I have, in typical ADHD procrastination, forgotten to update my blog. Big surprise. I have been on Strattera for three weeks now and we upped the dose last week. I have really started to notice the difference. The big plus is that my hands don't shake on it. YES!!
I'm still zoning out, but I think that is more a side effect of lack of sleep and will only get better as my sleep apnea goes away, which I hope happens soon. I'm working on losing weight right now.
The strattera works around the clock which is nice because I don't have the ups and downs I had with a medication that wears off at the end of the day. Sometimes, though, I do miss how I feel off of it too. I have to make a choice and having my mind calm and focusing on stuff is preferable to the agitation I experience when I go into overload.
Now if it could force me to get up off my butt and do the boring housework that I hate to do that would be a plus. I guess I'll just have to keep making myself do that. sigh!
Wednesday, March 28, 2007
Sunday, March 11, 2007
copying biscuit with a widget
I stole this from biscuit because I think it is really cool. It certainly picked up on my traits which is a little scarey.
Monday, March 05, 2007
Changing ADHD medications
I haven't written about my ADHD in quite awhile mainly because I've been too busy to write anything at all. I've been off work for the last three days and it has been great. Unfortunately, I go back to work tomorrow. Crud.
Back to the subject, I quit taking my Ritalin for a while but discovered my symptoms came back with a vengence. I think I noticed them so strongly because I've had them under control for over a year now. I'm sure your wondering why I quit taking the Ritalin and it happens to be a reason no one would guess. I have familial essential tremors and the medicine makes them worse. What that means is my hands shake sometimes. Only when they are in use. This condition has NO connections to Parkinson's so nobody freak out. It runs in my family and several members of my immediate and extended family have them.
When I discovered the connection between my meds and the tremors I decided it was time to look for alternatives to my current medication. Tomorrow I will start taking Strattera. I'll let you know how it goes. Ritalin is the only ADHD medication that is believed to worsen tremors so that makes switching easier.
Back to the subject, I quit taking my Ritalin for a while but discovered my symptoms came back with a vengence. I think I noticed them so strongly because I've had them under control for over a year now. I'm sure your wondering why I quit taking the Ritalin and it happens to be a reason no one would guess. I have familial essential tremors and the medicine makes them worse. What that means is my hands shake sometimes. Only when they are in use. This condition has NO connections to Parkinson's so nobody freak out. It runs in my family and several members of my immediate and extended family have them.
When I discovered the connection between my meds and the tremors I decided it was time to look for alternatives to my current medication. Tomorrow I will start taking Strattera. I'll let you know how it goes. Ritalin is the only ADHD medication that is believed to worsen tremors so that makes switching easier.
Saturday, January 20, 2007
She did it again. Sort of.
Well noodle has been testing her teachers to no end this week. The other day they called me to tell me she had busted the lip of one of classmates. She hit him with part of a toy. I will say this is the same kid who constantly pushes her and I'm not surprised she did it. However, I feel like they are treating her like she is the sole problem. I mentioned to the director that the other child antognizes her and she said that noodle seems to be learning from him. I was thinking to myself "NO, she's pissed off and getting him back." They are getting ready to move her up to the next class and he won't be in it so I think things are going to improve soon. I hope anyway.
Mom shall relax now and try not to scream. Heehee. When they called me at work to tell me about it I got off the phone and told my co-worker what happened. Everyone in the room wanted to know who made her mad. Two of them were people I don't know so I guess they looked at me and figured my kids were the type who had to be pushed into behaving like that. They would be right. The kid she hit tried to choke her about a month ago. He also picks on her regularly. I told her to play with some of the others, but for some reason she likes this kid. I hope this is not a pattern that she sticks with or I may never let her date.
Mom shall relax now and try not to scream. Heehee. When they called me at work to tell me about it I got off the phone and told my co-worker what happened. Everyone in the room wanted to know who made her mad. Two of them were people I don't know so I guess they looked at me and figured my kids were the type who had to be pushed into behaving like that. They would be right. The kid she hit tried to choke her about a month ago. He also picks on her regularly. I told her to play with some of the others, but for some reason she likes this kid. I hope this is not a pattern that she sticks with or I may never let her date.
Thursday, January 11, 2007
daughter sent home from daycare
Well today was fun. I got up and sent the kids to school today. My noodle (for those who don't know my daughter) didn't act like she really wanted to go. Then I got myself off to work. I didn't want to go either, but that's life. A couple of hours into work my cell phone rings, and I can't answer it because I'm busy. I figured it was just my hubby and it was no big deal. A moment later the office phone rings and it's the daycare. It turns out that noodle decided to be very difficult today and threw herself down on the floor in a flaming fit. They wanted me to come get her. Now my ADHD son has never had this happen and my daughter has never thown herself on the floor like that. I called my boss and she let me go home.
When I pick her up I could tell the daycare people thought I was going to get angry at them and were being very careful explaining things to me. I'm guessing other parents have lost it before. I asked questions about her behavior for the week and found out she had been like this for a few days. (Thanks for letting me know before you toss her out for the day.) I took her to the Dr to make sure she wasn't sick and all appears well except tonight she gagged and almost threw up. Then went right back to normal. Go figure.
I personally thing this has to do with her regular teacher being out following surgery.
I did notice that when I went back later to get my son the daycare people were looking at noodle like she was a terrible child. It was making me angry. She is going tomorrow and apologizing to her teacher again and we're going to work on it. There is a boy in her class that antagonizes her too. Time to deal with it and I think that will fix the problem. (crossing fingers)
When I pick her up I could tell the daycare people thought I was going to get angry at them and were being very careful explaining things to me. I'm guessing other parents have lost it before. I asked questions about her behavior for the week and found out she had been like this for a few days. (Thanks for letting me know before you toss her out for the day.) I took her to the Dr to make sure she wasn't sick and all appears well except tonight she gagged and almost threw up. Then went right back to normal. Go figure.
I personally thing this has to do with her regular teacher being out following surgery.
I did notice that when I went back later to get my son the daycare people were looking at noodle like she was a terrible child. It was making me angry. She is going tomorrow and apologizing to her teacher again and we're going to work on it. There is a boy in her class that antagonizes her too. Time to deal with it and I think that will fix the problem. (crossing fingers)
Wednesday, December 13, 2006
Sunday, December 03, 2006
tagged, you're it.
I have been tagged by siren. The rules say to post 6 weird things about myself and then tag 6 people at the end. I'm not going to tag anyone because everyone I know has already been tagged. However, if you read this post and haven't done it yet consider yourself tagged. Heheheh. Gotcha!
1. I will eat cheesecake while drinking beer. It's not as strange as it sounds. Try it.
2. I have a cell phone, but no one ever calls it so I'm always surprised when it does ring. My co-workers don't understand why it doesn't bother me to leave it at home or in my car. The only time anyone ever calls is when I do leave it.
3. I don't like large crowds.
4. I love Disney World. Crowds and all. (Think about it.)
5. I can't stand masks on my face.
6. I've only had one cavity in my life. I didn't get it until a couple of years ago. I'm also missing four teeth. I never had them in the first place. Guess why I wore braces in high school.
1. I will eat cheesecake while drinking beer. It's not as strange as it sounds. Try it.
2. I have a cell phone, but no one ever calls it so I'm always surprised when it does ring. My co-workers don't understand why it doesn't bother me to leave it at home or in my car. The only time anyone ever calls is when I do leave it.
3. I don't like large crowds.
4. I love Disney World. Crowds and all. (Think about it.)
5. I can't stand masks on my face.
6. I've only had one cavity in my life. I didn't get it until a couple of years ago. I'm also missing four teeth. I never had them in the first place. Guess why I wore braces in high school.
Wednesday, November 22, 2006
update on bus wreck
I was just going to edit my previous post, but I decided instead to write more in a new post.
Yesterday a fourth Student passed away. Her family was told shortly after noon. I was at work and was there when they were told the horrible news.
The first day I was so busy running around taking care of our work I didn't have time to stop and think. I heard the tears and screams of the families that day and but I was still in shock. It wasn't until yesterday as I heard a Mother crying she no longer had her baby that it I began to lose it. However we still had people to care for and they came first.
My co-worker and one of the hospital staff went into high gear helping keep this poor mother concious and I just made sure our people were okay. Another one of our staff is a part time minister and was able to be there for her and the family as well. He himself had a family member on the school bus. Fortunately, his relative only had minor injuries.
There are still many students still in the hospital and the bus driver is still in critical condition with severe back injuries.
Hug your children and other loved ones close. Always remember how special they are to you.
Yesterday a fourth Student passed away. Her family was told shortly after noon. I was at work and was there when they were told the horrible news.
The first day I was so busy running around taking care of our work I didn't have time to stop and think. I heard the tears and screams of the families that day and but I was still in shock. It wasn't until yesterday as I heard a Mother crying she no longer had her baby that it I began to lose it. However we still had people to care for and they came first.
My co-worker and one of the hospital staff went into high gear helping keep this poor mother concious and I just made sure our people were okay. Another one of our staff is a part time minister and was able to be there for her and the family as well. He himself had a family member on the school bus. Fortunately, his relative only had minor injuries.
There are still many students still in the hospital and the bus driver is still in critical condition with severe back injuries.
Hug your children and other loved ones close. Always remember how special they are to you.
Monday, November 20, 2006
Please pray
I wanted to ask anyone who reads this to say prayers and keep in your thoughts the family, friends and Medical personal, fire dept., and police officers who worked one of the worst accidents our city has ever seen today. Today they experienced the worst nightmare of all accidents, a School Bus traveling on our local interstate rolled off of the overpass and crashed to the ground below. There where 42 students and the driver on the bus. All of the students attend a local High School. There were three fatalities and many critical injuries. Their families and friends are devastated, but the people taking care of them are also feeling the pain. Please everyone hold them fast in your hearts because they need it right now. I should also add the community has come together today and is offering support in many different ways.
Here is a link to one of many articles about the wreck. http://waff.com/Global/story.asp?S=5708431
Here is a link to one of many articles about the wreck. http://waff.com/Global/story.asp?S=5708431
Sunday, November 19, 2006
not surprising
| Your Dominant Intelligence is Interpersonal Intelligence |
 You shine in your ability to realate to and understand others. Good at seeing others' points of view, you get how people think and feel. You have an uncanny ability to sense true feelings, intentions, and motivations. A natural born leader, you are great at teaching and mediating conflict. You would make a good counselor, salesperson, politician, or business person. |
Sunday, November 12, 2006
a few quizes here.
| Your Blogging Type is Pensive and Philosophical |
 You blog like no one else is reading... You tend to use your blog to explore ideas - often in long winded prose. Easy going and flexible, you tend to befriend other bloggers easily. But if they disagree with once too much, you'll pull them from your blogroll! |
| You Are 60% Weird |
 You're so weird, you think you're *totally* normal. Right? But you wig out even the biggest of circus freaks! |
| You Should Drive a Ford Explorer SportTrac |
 Tough and supercharged, you have some rather extreme driving practices. You've been known to intimidate a few drivers. You rule the road. |
Wednesday, October 04, 2006
work
Well, as many of you know I returned to the full time work world a few months ago. I actually enjoy the work I do and the public I work with, however, the work enviroment has become increasingly worse. My bosses appear to be trying to fix it so I'm hanging in there but I don't know for how much longer.
I recently became the target of some coworkers who are systematically trying to get some of us to quit. Through tears I fought back. I don't think they were expecting me to stand my ground. Believe me I have wanted to run for the door several times over the last couple of weeks and I still may. I might as well tell you I'm in the minorty at my place of employment and those in the majority are working to keep it that way. They want people like me gone, and no I'm not imagining this. I think my bosses think I am though.
I'm sinking deeper into a depressive state and fighting everyday to reach the surface for some air. Sometimes it comes, sometimes I'm still swimming with everything I've got. I just want to go to work and enjoy what I'm doing, but when all you want to do is cry and crawl into a corner somewhere it's not working.
Sometimes people in other departments will say hi to me in the mornings with the standard greeting of "How are you?" I always answer "fine," but inside I feel like I'm lying and that they can see it on my face. I'm not hiding it well anymore. My boss wanted to talk to me about something else entirely and I broke down in tears. We talked about things and tried to find some resolutions, but I wish she had never seen that side of me. I've worked hard to control my emotions (unfortunately, when your ADHD emotional control can be difficult) and lately I've lost a lot of what I spent a lifetime working on. Right now the tears have been flowing, but if they keep pushing me my temper will surface and good sense may not stop me from letting someone have it.
To put it more concisely "I'm being pushed to the limit and I don't know how far I can go before I collapse."
I recently became the target of some coworkers who are systematically trying to get some of us to quit. Through tears I fought back. I don't think they were expecting me to stand my ground. Believe me I have wanted to run for the door several times over the last couple of weeks and I still may. I might as well tell you I'm in the minorty at my place of employment and those in the majority are working to keep it that way. They want people like me gone, and no I'm not imagining this. I think my bosses think I am though.
I'm sinking deeper into a depressive state and fighting everyday to reach the surface for some air. Sometimes it comes, sometimes I'm still swimming with everything I've got. I just want to go to work and enjoy what I'm doing, but when all you want to do is cry and crawl into a corner somewhere it's not working.
Sometimes people in other departments will say hi to me in the mornings with the standard greeting of "How are you?" I always answer "fine," but inside I feel like I'm lying and that they can see it on my face. I'm not hiding it well anymore. My boss wanted to talk to me about something else entirely and I broke down in tears. We talked about things and tried to find some resolutions, but I wish she had never seen that side of me. I've worked hard to control my emotions (unfortunately, when your ADHD emotional control can be difficult) and lately I've lost a lot of what I spent a lifetime working on. Right now the tears have been flowing, but if they keep pushing me my temper will surface and good sense may not stop me from letting someone have it.
To put it more concisely "I'm being pushed to the limit and I don't know how far I can go before I collapse."
Saturday, July 22, 2006
NO, I didn't disappear. I'm here somewhere, I think.
I stole this from biscuit, but since I hadn't posted in a while it seemed like a good way to jump back in. I found it funny because in my new job everyone thinks I'm the straight laced conservative one. I'm enjoying shocking the hell out of them. They think I don't cuss or think about sex at all. One day an associate told me to cover my ears before she read a text message. I didn't hear her say it and busted out laughing when she read the message. She and the others were suprised. It is an interested experience.
Results of Your Sex Personality Test
Your score = 83
What does your score mean?
The results of the test suggest that you are very open-minded when it comes to sexuality. You seem to welcome new experiences within the realm of sex and even if you aren't comfortable with a particular ingredient of sex, you are very nonjudgmental of those who indulge themselves. You are not threatened by the diverse sexual tastes that make this world go round. In fact, you seem to be willing to tolerate sexual behavior that colors outside of the lines of 'normalcy,' as long as both partners are into it. Keep up the healthy attitude!
Results of Your Sex Personality Test
Your score = 83
What does your score mean?
The results of the test suggest that you are very open-minded when it comes to sexuality. You seem to welcome new experiences within the realm of sex and even if you aren't comfortable with a particular ingredient of sex, you are very nonjudgmental of those who indulge themselves. You are not threatened by the diverse sexual tastes that make this world go round. In fact, you seem to be willing to tolerate sexual behavior that colors outside of the lines of 'normalcy,' as long as both partners are into it. Keep up the healthy attitude!
Wednesday, May 24, 2006
busy, busy, busy
Well I haven't posted for a good reason. I HAVE A JOB! I haven't been home to post. I got the job I interviewed for and have been training this week. I won't be able to look online while I'm at work so I don't know how much I'll be around.
My kids started day care this week and we made the mistake of signing them up for somewhere that could take both of them. That was stupid because my initial instincts were screaming NO! to this place. I didn't see anything terrible I just knew. My husband went there in the middle of the day Mon. and Tues. and noticed the kids were outside all day. (my kids sunburn easily and the daycares are not allowed to apply sunscreen) They went in for short breaks, but that was it. On Tuesday when they put my daughter down for a nap she started crying so the teacher put her in the hall so she wouldn't wake the other children. (The teacher actually told me she did this) We asked my son about it and he told us he saw her sleeping in the hallway with no adults around. They are not going back.
This morning I got up and called the daycare I wanted her to go to and they took her right in. I walked in there and just knew it was the right place. She had a blast. They even put her hair in pigtails. When I came home I didn't recognize her. I actually looked at her and wondered who this little girl was who was in my house. Then I realized it was my noodle. It was funny.
My son spent the day with a friend who has agreed to watch him for the rest of the week. I have to hit up my parents for next week and then he will spend the summer at our school's summer program.
This has been a busy week to say the least.
My kids started day care this week and we made the mistake of signing them up for somewhere that could take both of them. That was stupid because my initial instincts were screaming NO! to this place. I didn't see anything terrible I just knew. My husband went there in the middle of the day Mon. and Tues. and noticed the kids were outside all day. (my kids sunburn easily and the daycares are not allowed to apply sunscreen) They went in for short breaks, but that was it. On Tuesday when they put my daughter down for a nap she started crying so the teacher put her in the hall so she wouldn't wake the other children. (The teacher actually told me she did this) We asked my son about it and he told us he saw her sleeping in the hallway with no adults around. They are not going back.
This morning I got up and called the daycare I wanted her to go to and they took her right in. I walked in there and just knew it was the right place. She had a blast. They even put her hair in pigtails. When I came home I didn't recognize her. I actually looked at her and wondered who this little girl was who was in my house. Then I realized it was my noodle. It was funny.
My son spent the day with a friend who has agreed to watch him for the rest of the week. I have to hit up my parents for next week and then he will spend the summer at our school's summer program.
This has been a busy week to say the least.
Wednesday, May 17, 2006
Mother's day
Well my Mother's day was a quiet one. The kids couldn't wait to give me my gifts. They were so cute. They were so excited they forgot the flowers. I had to remind my daughter to go get them. On Saturday night I said something to my husband about Mother's day and he stood there stunned. He had forgotten it was on Sunday. Nevermind the fact only a few days before I had to remind him to buy a card for his mother. Yes, he did mail it. So as soon as my son got out of his bath and dressed they took off for the store. I told him something small was fine. Nothing fancy. My son picked out a reece's cups big pack (they were gone by the end of the day) and a cute stuffed doggy toy. He also picked out a dozen roses. Then we went to dinner that night. We had Chinese at our favorite restaurant. I've never been wished Happy Mother's day so many times. Everyone who worked there kept saying it to me, and you could tell they meant it. Probably because at the time I was the only Mom in there with her kids. It was fun though.
BTW I went and filled out more paperwork for the job I'm trying to get and ordered my uniforms. As long as I pass my drug test with no problems I start soon. I'm on the hunt for daycare. That is not as easy as it seems. I need summer care for my son too.
BTW I went and filled out more paperwork for the job I'm trying to get and ordered my uniforms. As long as I pass my drug test with no problems I start soon. I'm on the hunt for daycare. That is not as easy as it seems. I need summer care for my son too.
Friday, May 12, 2006
Time to say something
I know I don't talk about politics on my blog, but today I am. I'm coming out. I am a member of Moveon.org. They are working to save internet neutrality. Essentially we are trying to stop the government from allowing private companies too much control over the internet. Is some on these companies get their way when we begin looking for web sites we will only find the companies that have paid to be found. I don't like that one bit. I already pay to view the internet via my subscription I want what's on the other end to stay accessible to everyone.
I wanted to use the one the one that has this qoute: "The internet can't be free." AT&T CEO Ed Whitacre but it wouldn't show up. ATT is one of the main companies behind the push to take control of the internet. Google and other search engines are actively fighting to stop them.
Here is a link to learn more.
http://www.moveon.org/r?r=1771&id=7594-6213013-QHkwtl.KoDYzhUmNsr4vZA&t=3
I wanted to use the one the one that has this qoute: "The internet can't be free." AT&T CEO Ed Whitacre but it wouldn't show up. ATT is one of the main companies behind the push to take control of the internet. Google and other search engines are actively fighting to stop them.
Here is a link to learn more.
http://www.moveon.org/r?r=1771&id=7594-6213013-QHkwtl.KoDYzhUmNsr4vZA&t=3
Thursday, May 11, 2006
next step
Well I go back in for "phase 1" of the hiring process today. I have no idea what that means. The other day when I was interviewed she said I would be called back for a second interview if I passed the test they gave me. They want driving record info today so I guess they are going to make sure I can drive to destination's for work. I think it's time to find out how much this position pays, and if I should start looking for day care for my kids. That would be good to know. She did tell me they were going to hire more than they needed to fill the positions. That kind of thing always makes me nervous. However if I can get in there, and stay with it, I can get the training I need for a Lab job somewhere.
Monday, May 08, 2006
I'm going to hide now!
I have been sick the past two days and I can't believe I'm still awake, but I am. Tomorrow is my 39th birthday and I'm a little freaked out. Can you say AUuuuugh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I have never reacted to a birthday before but this one is getting to me. It may have something to do with me having a job interview tomorrow. This is for a job unlike what I have done before, but I have a good feeling so cross your fingers for me. A prayer wouldn't hurt either. I'm going to have to go back to work full time if we have any hope of ever buying a bigger house. Lately, we've been pretty broke which is another good reason for it, but the biggest reason is that I've been going a bit stir crazy and I think going back to work would be good for me. Oh yeah, I'm getting thinner and I'm starting to really notice the difference my weightloss efforts are making. Building muscle doesn't hurt either.
Thursday, May 04, 2006
my life rated
| This Is My Life, Rated | |
| Life: |  6 |
| Mind: |  4.6 |
| Body: | 5.7 |
| Spirit: | 5.6 |
| Friends/Family: | 5.8 |
| Love: |  9.1 |
| Finance: |  5.4 |
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