Gettin' behind here

Sorry no pics of backsides for you today. Just noticed it's been a couple of weeks.

As I wrote before soccer season is here and, guess what, do to work I saw my first game this past Saturday. Thanks to work I missed Noodles game entirely. She is five and I haven't seen even one game yet. It has upset me alot. I did get to see my son's game though. I'm off this coming Saturday and nothing is keeping me from those games. If work calls I'm disappearing.

For those who know my job has been in the pits lately I found out yesterday that my boss is actually trying to help me out this week. She didn't tell me though she told my co-worker who I was assigned too. If she really wants to help me why did she try to humiliate me in front of the entire staff. I don't get it. I should point out her attempts weren't successful. I just sat there and pretended I knew. I'm sure I was supposed to get upset and make a scene. She hasn't spoken to me once about any problem she may actually have with me as an employee. I have decided that the promotion they were talking about giving me they can keep. I don't want it anymore.

I never related this story before but I will use it as the learning lesson as to why I no longer want the supervisors job that I was told I would get and got slapped in the face with. One of my fellow associates, in another department, was promoted to a supervisers position in his dept. I thought he was doing fine, but one day he told me they were demoting him, and taking away his pay grade. He's been there many years and didn't quit over it. He said he could wait it out because the bosses change faster than those of us in the lower ranks. He's right too. He even asked me "Are you sure you want that job? You know they'll do it to you too. They always do." I had hoped he was wrong, but he wasn't.

I have applied to change departments, but I do intend to start looking elsewhere also.

I used to be the kid who was the favorite target for getting picked on during Middle School. I was lucky my parents cared and helped me through it. However, no one can ever take away that pain. I've always cried easily and still have trouble with that, but the control is better. ADHD makes you a more sensitive person. The thing is because those kids picked on me I learned how to spot that behaviour in others from a mile away. For some reason adults still do it too. I have not been such an easy target as an adult. That is because I already learned years ago that letting them see how mad it makes you only makes it fun for them. No reaction or a really good retort gives them no satisfaction and tends to leave them feeling deflated. This is the reason my new boss did not succeed in humiliating me Saturday.